Is it possible? Spend my whole life to love a girl? I start to wonder. Even she doesn't love me anymore, but should I change my mind? Not only I can't forget her, but also I can't change my type so easily. I always think, how wonderful if I am robot, then I don't have any feelings, and don't have so much emotions...
I always do the wrong things, and do the things wrong.
I hate myself.
What kind of man just want to live for someone not for himself?
A silly and stupid man.
I hate myself.
I am not afraid to lose myself, but I always lose something and someone.
I hate myself.
I want to keep and maintain something and someone, but I have no abilities and talent.
I hate myself.
I need time to wake up from this dream...