Well I met Emi yesterday, things were good. He didn't act as a jerk as he acted the day we talked through ICQ.

I think I got wrong Ideas about him, but I don't know, I will be carefull about him.

I won't allow him or nobody to use me as a toy.

Maybe I'm too naivy, I'm confused.

Anyway, now I'm glad because in my life I do what I like, and soon I will be able to say I love my job.
I write later I have many duties now... so tiring!!!

Poor of Sam.... well

I talked today with Emi, and for my surprise he was a little bit angry? or something like that. But this time he was clear with me, I asked to be clear now.

He said he want's a Love Affair that he likes me, but that's all.

He also said he doesn't want to put me under pression.

But what I understood is that he doesn't want a real relantionship with me. That doesn't make me sad because I don't have feelings for him. But I wonder what can happen if I play his game, I can even finish hurted...again?.

Well I don't know what to do, but I think Emi is not the boy I though he was.

I'm confused... some of my friends said "go ahead" the others said: "be careful"

One friend told me: ok have a little affair and later leave him and tell him: "that's why u only want an affair right? because u cant handle a real woman"

hahahaha I dont know

Tomorrow I will meet him.... but I wont go far with him......

Other thing that happened this week is about a boy called Tony.

I find him now everywhere ... but I think he is gay. He always smiles me and when I see him I say "hello".

The other day I had to work with him and I was extremly nervous and laughing at everything as the idiot than I am lol.

I liked him ... but I think he is gay... or maybe he is metrosexual? I dont know.. well the last day I saw him I was acting normal and I didnt feel that tickles that people feel when they are in love.
This doll will enjoy life.... no regrets ....

Ok... i'm very tired of being waiting for something nice with my boyfriend. It seems he has many problems, so babe: go and fix your life!!!! and later if you have the time and interest on me we talk and everything can be as beautiful as it was before.

But I'm sorry to tell you that I'm not going to sit down and wait for you. 

If you are the love of my life, it will be... and if you are not... I'm still young to find a new love.

Many things has happened in my life these last days, but yesterday something cool happened. I was in a bar and I was bored and I though about Em and suddenly I said to my friend: hey look he looks like Em, and yes he was Em. But he looked soooooo good yesterday, I never saw him like that .... I regreted to didn't call him. So I was going to leave the bar but i decided to go and say "hi". One of my friends told me: dont let him go ... he is very handsome.

So I walked to him and we talked a little bit, he said he never recived my SMS and he though I didnt want to meet him (maybe he is right lol because I felt bad coz I "have" a boyfriend). Well I told him that I wrote him and  bla bla bla . Later we stayed in silence, ys that silence that bothers you and you dont know what to say.

I told him: maybe we can meet someday ... I'm leaving now

I don't remember what he asnwered ... maybe because he didn't say too much.

so I left.. with a broken heart.

I have been blind ... I left go an amazing boy as Em for staying with a boyfriend that can't even deal with his own life. Well I must say too that Em is, I dont know, maybe a little bit silly lol I'm not sure, we don't have to much thing to talk about, of maybe is because we are just knowing is each other now.

I dont know what will happend with Emi, maybe I will wrote him or I don't know.

Anyway I still like the blond guy that is in the next class. :D

Emi come back to my life ...my friend say you are hot hehehe ... I have been silly sorry :'(

I wont be scared anymore.... what must happen will happen ....

My heart is open and full of love, I hope this will help me in this life fight, and if it's not enough I will be ok, everything it's gonna be alright.

I'm young and I have a entire life in front of me.

I must live without fear, because if i live with fear it wont let me be happy.

I know I can fall, but If I don't risk because I'm scared to fall I'll never success,

so NOW I promise I will risk ... my heart can be broken but I must take this risk..

I take the risk! I promise! God will help me wherever I go, I'm a good person and I'll never do something bad for anybody.

I must fight my inner fights.

I love you babe!!!!!