Hello,

well last winter I decided to go on holidays abroad....and I have a very good friend in Spain....unfourtunatle we havent talked for long time .... although she is my closest (even if she is a msn friend) the point is that I forgot to go to Spain and instead of that I went to Berlin coz my friend Nils was like: come here come here .....

and he was like my little brother

In Berlin.... I had a strange holidays ... coz I had communication problems with my dearest Nils xD  (i dont speak german and he doesnt speak spanish) so my holidays werent as good as i wanted it to be ....

There we met his friend Nora... and she is my friend too of course ... but the problems about the language continued... so I get bored must of the time ....

Days before I was leaving Mexico I talked with my Spanish friend... and she said her mommy has cancer .... :( that was very sad for me to hear because I appreciate my friend too much and of course I want the best for her...

She said to me that she wish I could be with her ..... what could I say? Oh sorry I wont be with u but instead of that I will be in Berlin with unkown friends? xD of course dont!!!!
I felt guilty about it.... and I didnt tell her I went to Berlin... maybe I will someday....

or maybe no xD

and I wonder now... is an msn a real friend? I think she is but ... I dont know you ... but I think we start to forget people when we dont see them too much (I talk about our friends who live near too) ....

for example one of my friends changed city.... and she was very close to me.... but now...what can we expect??? ....when people is far we forget.... people change... we change.....somepeople came and gone.... somepeople stays....

but its hard to depend just of msn to see yours friends....

Im  confused ......

Im not a bad person ..... but sometimes I wonder if i forget to easily....

or if we are alone in the desert ....