I admit I have been in bad mood lately. I think everything that has passes has affected me. I dont know why I havent met bloody Erny :( I dont know I just want to feel loved..is that much to ask for???

YEsterday I sent a SMS to my ex love coz his city is in problems. I didnt expect he was going to aswer but he did in a polite way, not a sweet way but polite. I wanted to show him I do care for him. HE meant a lot for me and I guess he will always be important for me.

About Erny, well, I guess this guy doesnt know what he wants in his life and the one who doesnt know what he wants ...doesnt deserve what he has. That phrase is also for me... I dont know what I want. So, I dont know if I will meet him again. I have talked to him in the chat and sent him some SMS, he answered but well, if he is not interested in me anymore I wont beg him. Whatever...sun will rise every morning

I must begin to plan my life. I want to be a teacher so I will start to plan how i will become a teacher. Im not sure if I will study a second major in languages or how, but I want to be a teacher. Some people will think I'm crazy but I won't care... I will happy by doing what I want, by following my dreams.

Tonight I will go to a party of my friend Monique I hope it will be funny. Erny said we were going to a trip this weekend but now he is gone hahaha and forgot about me. I wont care. I cant let anyone to bring me down. Happiness is inside me. Today I met my friend Tessa. I gave her a present a cow cup hehehe. We went to buy some movies and I got some really cool movies and some DVD's about Buddhism, 2012 and other things.

Near the place where we bought the movies we found a Dance School!!!! Oh yes, coz I really want to take dancing classes and so does Tessa and other classmate. So, I think we will be talking dancing classes soon. That will be so cool. I wont be scared of dancing latin dances anymore lol. I watched the movies "shall we dance?" with Richard GEre and the sexy latin star Jennifer Lopez .. and today I found a dance school...coincidence? :-o

Oh, I also bought a t-shirt that says "Kiss me, I'm Latin" hehehe that's cool. I will wear it when I will be abroad.

It seems my mom will go abroad in winter. so, I need to make plans fo Xmas and New Year, I think i will be travelling inside the country and later I will go abroad... yuppy.

By the way, I will learn also some strip tease dance steps hehehehe so cool and also some exercises about CHI. Chi is a chinese thing I think...some inner streight I guess. I also have DVD's of my favorite TV program: Sex and The City!!! Wuju, I'm excited.

Anyway, I must go now.. kisses

remember to be happy everyday..think about the amazing things we all have not about thing we dont have.