Well, I’m back. I have had a busy week and I have been full of things to do. This week I have to give a presentation so I must be working on it but instead of that I decided to write a bit.

On Friday I met Erny after always two years of not seeing him. He looks good and I for lack of love and anything better to do I may be meeting him again. He was a bit strange at the beginning, when we hadn’t seen each other for years.  He drove like for an hour and at the beginning he was talking about law. It was very boring. I was thinking: God, what am I doing here? I don’t wanna meet him again.

Why did he have to talk about law?? To look smart? I have no doubt he is damn smart but come on I was so bored!!! I also thought:  can we omit this part of the night and have a smooch now?. After all we had a love affair before and now I don’t think he wants anything different. It’s a bit sad but true.

We were walking for a while. He said well ok, now I can hug you coz we haven’t meet for ages. We hugged and keep walking and I don’t know how later he was holding my hand. Maybe I caused coz I don’t know but it feels nice to walk with somebody as if he really cared about me. I know I’m probably nothing for him more than someone to have fun with him. Sometimes while he was driving he put his hand on my leg.

While walking he said: I like your coat. Later: -You look very good, I like your hair. He called his friends to see if they were in any nice place to meet and at almost midnight we meet them in a bar. It was very boring. His friends are economist too. Why did we finish with his friends??? Why why??? Later one of the boys said: I don’t know where you girlfriend would like to go.. and Erny answered: she is not my girlfriend. She is my friend. Boy: sorry.

 We went to a party (which I told him I didn’t want to go) but at the end we went. I was worried Oct could be there and see me with Erny hahahaha. I don’t want that coz I am still interested in Oct. Oh my god, now the world is full of handsome muchachos  and I don’t wanna lose any chance.

In the party we kissed. Maybe I caused it.. dunno Erny was very slow what is odd from him. Coz he is a womanizer. Maybe he wanted something serious this time and I ruined? I don’t think so. Sib said I should make things go faster with Erny. Of course Sib is just a horny boy hehehehe. I don’t know Im confused now… I like Erny but maybe he still is a womanizer… but maybe Im just looking for fun.. but what if I fell in love? I’m dumb..