Quoting And this the email I sent her today...:

Hi,

I took the guts to type because u told emails were ok.But now,with the experienced ijaz in hand,hehe, I no longer care if u don’t reply,hehe.

Well, I always wanted to say something to u that only few of my frends in internet know. Only these few frends I have talked everything with. I wanted to say the same to u,but, I don’t know, sometimes purposefully or other times due to the excitement I saw u online, I didn’t say to u….

U know why I come online?? Well, its because I can b whatever I want to b here,Michelle anglo, beckem ,Jackson,anything… Its like a second life out here. No one cares where I am from or wat I do. Apart from being an engineer, I am still waiting for my final exam results. I know I am to b sooo free after that.But did u knew how was my life here…?

Just because u didn’t ask dosent mean I cant say that to my best buddy right?? Well, I always rush online wen something terrible happens to me. In fact, if its 7 days a week, I almost have fights with my parents in most 5 of them. I don’t even know wat r some of the problems we fight over,it just pops up….If I watch TV, that’s a mistake, if I use the intenet, that’s one, If I plan to have a free time of my own ,that’s one..I don’t know,fights pop up out of the blue. I was working 24x7 round the clock to finish my engineering. I slept at 2 and woke up at three for my exams & most days…Wen I came back home after my exams, the first question put to me was how long u plan to stay here? I just told “until I get my certificate” But from that day, I hadn’t had a peace in my house…I just cant understand why…

I have just a few weeks before I get my certificates now, but I want to tell u that day wen I sent that stupid mail…It was a day wen I had the worst talk with my parents. I just don’t know why I care abt people sooo much but I do. In that night in a mixed feeling of anger & sadness I remember saying to u that I had something important to talk. But I remember u saying before that u were talking with other frends of urs…may b u didn’t see that “important Line” ,I waited for a reply, but u didn’t type anything… To my unluck, the people I talk everything like my best frend Mary,they were not online too.I completely dependent on u….As u said to me yesterday , I should have taken that view point of urs that “u r not the one to bare wats with me”,right?......I have this feeling always dat wen I am sad, I should tell the whole thing to someone,to make me convince myself to take it light,to take that heavy stone away from me…I could have emailed u like I am doing now… I just didn’t think straight…I couldn’t,that was the whole point. U cry wen ur bro gets angry with u?? that’s because u care & love for him. Same with me & my mom…That anger and sadness finally gave way & I typed all that stupid things into that email. I am telling u dis because yesterday u asked me never to repeat it. Well , if I did it again which I will try not, u know why,right? I told u abt a handful of dem who hears me out wen I am in such a situation, well they know why I react like that because u r not the only one I have sent these stupid emails,hehe. But they know that I am in some serious shit when I do that,hehe. One of them emailed for the same kind of email I sent u as” Don’t go anywhere, I will b online in 20 minutes”,hehe… This was a fog I wanted to clear out,hehe, I did a pretty good job,didn’t I??hehe, ya , I know I did,hehe……..

I don’t want u to b sympathetic or anything,hehe… I just want u know the real me apart from all the laughter & acting weired…I hope u had time to read this ,I don’t expect reply so no fights over that yet again,hehe. I just want u to know this me,hehe…. So have a good day, I hope u had that meeting or something hehe just fine,right??? Take care………….