Why am I so dumb? So unable to live, and to care for myself instead of caring for other*s concern...I liked him...really...he was nice and gentle, caring, handsome....but instead of trying for myself...

I helped a girlfriend!

She liked him, too, and I was so sure that it was for the best for both of them, so I told him about her feelings...

Now I'm standing here, nodding and grinning, pretending to be happy for them...

And I could kill them, both, and myself afterwards, for being the dumbest a....in the whole wide world...