Saturday afternoon… 20th june

I’m sad. I’m crying.
Time ago Ryan told me I was unusual and that that was ok. I just needed to find more unusual people to not be alone anymore. He said he was like me when he was younger. He was a random person I met once in ICQ. It was very strange coz we just talked once and next day he told me many things about me. How did he know all that? … it was like if he read my heart and soul, like if he could read my pain and happiness from a book. He said I was special.

I have never believed I’m anything special and sometimes I feel like piece of crap. I don’t know what I have done wrong all my life that have put me in a lonely situation. Maybe I'm just a freak lol.

Sometimes during my day some songs come to my head and I feel like if I were there. It’s strange coz I have remembered songs that I haven’t listened a lot or even songs in languages that I can’t understand but I still can feel what they sing… pain, sorrow or happiness.

Today was a funny day. I was with Tessa and Ro in a shop and it started raining so we couldn’t move. We were bored of being there and we decided to run to the metro and we got wet hehehe. Later, we walked to go to her car. I bought many movies, so I have something to do in my free time.

Sunday morning.

Well, today I feel ok.. I’m still alive. I think about many things. All is strange in my mind.  I want to avoid my mind of thinking but I just feel strange. I’m crazy again. I must fix all my inner fights in order to be happy.

Something odd happened today. It seems internet is full of crazy people and you don’t really know who you can trust or not, so crazy. It’s full of fake people.

I miss Chico B L me encanta su actitud… oh hell, yeah!!!!