Wow, I'm totally in love with two guys and i just don't know what to do anymore. I have feelings for the guy i am with now but he treats me like shit most of the time and i started talking to this guy named will that i met on fubar and i totally  like him and he has the same hopes and dreams that i have and i know that we would totally work out better then the guy that i am with right now and i am sure of this. Well i know that i am in a good state of mind because i really do have feelings for will and i want him in my life because i know in my heart that he would be better for me then the guy i have right now and  i am torn and confussed at the same time.

I'm totally love how Kristina thinks and she is my best friend and we both hate Amanda peck the slut bitch and whore if you ask me. Because i totally think it's funny that Amanda is going to lose everything she wanted in life and i am not going to be friends with someone who sleeps around and everything. I'm not that fucking dumb if you ask me i think it's fucking funny and i hope she gets what std because that how much i fucking hate her and she a big ass drama queen and i am not going to let that bitch fuck things up for me because i am totally fuck things up for her and she don't want to go there with me because i am fucking older then her and wiseer then she is and i am a very good person once you get to know me. So i am going to laugh once all this happens because that just nothing i am not going to safe her.

Well, Today is going to be a long ass day because i am just in my room about to do some cleaning because i am bored out of my mind so i thought i would get some of my thoughts done on my blogs before i did some cleaning and totally forget and everything but i am a loving girl who just wants a good life for her self and i thought i was doing that good of a job but i know that i need to figured out things but it's hard when you know that you're heart not in the right place that you want it to be and you keep thinking about the one person you really want in you're life. So as i am sitting her thinking about all the things that i really want in life that i just know things are totally going to work out for me i have faith in myself.

I just want to be happy and that is all i really care about in my life. I know that i am going to make mistakes in my life but i know how to learn from them and just knowing that i do know about my life is not all that complicated so i just have to keep my head up high and pray that god is willing to help me and guide me through all the different changes in life that i need to really know about and that  is what i am hoping for because if he can help me change my life to be a better person then i won't have to be the way that i am right now and that just something i am trying to do because i feel it's right and i know that my friends and family are going to see a change coming i just can't promised it right now if you know what i mean. So i just feel like i have made some changes in my life and i am happy with it i love who i am.

Well bloggers, I'm going to go for now, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So peace out everyone, Bye for now, Please check back for more updates on me.