Wow, I'm so pissed off at chris it's not even funny anymore. I just don't know what i was thinking with him and i am finally wondering if i made a big mistake or not. Because he called me this morning and we were talking and i told him how i went to a party and hang out with my cousin and his friend Jeremy and everything and how much fun i had and how fucking drunk i was and it was great and all trust me if you know what i mean. Well he tells me that he went out and had fun with his biker buddys and everything and then told me that he fuck is ex girlfriend and that totally pissed me off if you are into me i don't want to hear that. Well i told him that i had to go and i'll talk to him later i am wondering if he knows that i am pissed off and hurt but why would you do that to someone you like that fuck up if you ask me.

I'm so done with the lies that people tell me because it's not worth it or my time and i just don't want to hear them anymore and it really hurts when you think that someone likes you and they fucking play with you're emotions and everything. I just don't know if i have the heart to say what is really on my mind as i am sitting here writing what i feel and i am tried of playing all the fucking games that guys play with gurls and it's not right if you ask me. I'm not interested in playing all the fucking games and i am just tired of all the shit that goes on and i just wish that people would totally fucking grow up and just leave me out of there fucking drama and just let me live my own life and not have to care about anything that goes on.

I'm not sure on what i am going to do about things because i just want to move on with my life and not worry about things just be myself if you ask me it's kind of crazy. I just don't want to lose what i have and that just the love i have for my friends and they sometimes pissed me off because they don't realized that i have my own life and i just want to spend it with the one who has my heart and soul and don't play games with me and everything. I'm totally just playing my cards safe right now because that how i feel and its not right for me to feel the pain i am feeling and it's not who i am and everything and i just don't want that in my life. I have terms and it's not like i am asking for much if you know what i am talking about.

I really miss my sexy boyfriend and i was so happy when i got to talk to him last night on yahoo messenger and we cam with each other and that was totally awesome. I really do miss him and i am hoping that he comes online tonight so we can talk to each other and make more plans to spend time with each other because i have to find out what he wants to do and hopefully get that off from work if you ask me and everything. I just wish that will was online and that we could talk like we did last night and i am finally in love this time and i know what love feels like and i really love it because he only wants to be with me and he very interested in me.

I'm glad that my mom had a great mother's day and everything. And tomorrow is her birthday and i just wanted to wish her a great day and hopefully we can go out this weekend and have fun and just forget all the crazyness things that goes on in life. I just want to have fun with my family and friends and just show how much i love my friends and family and i am not going to forget them because i am just who i am and that is just how i am feeling. I love everyone and that nothing you just don't want to forget if you ask me and everything.

Well Bloggers, I'm going to end this here, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So peace out everyone, Bye for now, Please check back for more updates on me.