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Mar 14th 2009, 11:13 AM
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a friend asked me:"Sam,do you know what is love?"
em...i don't know that i know it or not,cuz i have never love someone,maybe i love him ,just i don't know.or....
i suppose
love someone is like you often miss him and also want to share your feelings with him.That is just my guess,cuz so far there is still have no one can appeal to me in my real life.
i think there have three reasons
firstly,maybe my thoughts precocious,and i think boys who i know are very childish,and i am addicted to the internet,i like to make friends with all ages.i love man who is older than me,although the kids are very lovely,but i just feel they won't understand me,and can not help me solve my affectional problems.
i just often feel confused ,i am all at sea...
when boy said he loves me,then i just refused,my first feeling is "oh,why did you say that?i don't want a BF,fuck off." when i refused them,i can see their eyes changed grey and down,i don't want to hurt them,but ...i did !!!
secondly,i am afraid they just play joke on me or cheat my affection.and that i will be badly hurt.
thirdly,when i am a child,a worst thing happened to me,so i think it makes me have a very bad impression of men.i just told that thing to one of my online friend,i was fear to fact to that man.afraid to tell that thing to my parents,cuz i though they wouldn't believe me and hit my ass,i won't forget that thing even if many years past.
but i think i won't refuse boys who love me in the furture.
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