Maybe, you come from the heaven. You're so beautiful. First, I met you at new school on October 15th. I saw you on my school yard, when you sat down a rock chair next aquarium. That's first I met you. Time I met you not long only a few days. You know? I remember very yesterday. Remember your smile when you see my grade school subjects Fitness. Remember how you sit, you lie on the chair of the school. I miss you much. I want to see your eye when you look at my class. I hope time can return. Yesterday has passed quickly. During two hours of yesterday, seems I only see you. In my eyes only you. Like my only world your existence. I'd love to party you have to say: 'Hello? " But I did not do so because I am very afraid. I am afraid you leave, that is for sure. Because tomorrow is the last day, I can see you. I hope you can come back to my school at The books festival in 2010. I just know hope so. Tomorrow I will see your last smile. Tomorrow, I have decided to stay at school to buy some school books. Hopefully the time, I met you will be longer. I want to see you. I miss you.You are my angel. You appeared and disappeared quickly. Too fast so I can see you. Maybe, you come from heaven.  I want to sit down beside you ,though that time is just one minute to my dreams can be longer. I want to see your eyes to my heart has more peaceful. I'm afraid I will wanna beside you more what I think. I wanna say that:' Don't leave me though whirlwind is coming'. But I can't. I'm afraid. Tomorrow, I will meet you. You are my angel.

    I'm so sorry. I'm back. I had really the busy days. I think maybe, you too. The summer finished. We have to go to school, do homework. Really busy. Right? I don't know why the time so quickly. It seems only yesterday. And you? How do you feel? Maybe, you too. I feel very difficult to accept this new life. I moved a new school. I will study there for 3 years to graduate high school. I had a not too good beginning, it's not too bad. For me, it's the start.
    I'm busy. I don't know when I will back. But hope you can forgive me. I will try. Give you a hug.
          Love you
            Nguyen

Last days, my mind has been around in somewhere. Maybe, it's hell or maybe, it's heaven- a temporary heaven. Although, it's hell but I was happy. I was happy more than what you can think. I laughed and I also cried. I know you will not understand what I say. I know! I have an extended period of time immersed in thoughts. And I know that I love you. Maybe, you will not believe but that is true. I love you more than what you think. That is not much, just pass a limit between us. I know we will not. And I also know that we can't and I do not expect anything more than so. I can not do something you have to do damage. Me and you did not have much time. I will not be surprised if you say you do not understand. By I also can not understand you. I'm sorry. Because I did damage to you. I'm sorry. Because I didn't understand you. I'm sorry. But I really don't intentionally. I never wanted to do it with you. Do you know how I did? I know you will angry but I don't know how. I'm afraid you will angry me. But I can't do other. I don't know what you will say.
Do you know how much I was hurt when I said you promised you would never have meet me? I know you was angry. I don't know how to you can understand.
I'm so sorry. I cried when you said that. Because what you said and what I'm bearing. 4 years ago, I had no time to talking to you. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.
I don't know how you are. I don't know what you felt. I don't know what you are thinking about me. I missed 'Evergreen'. I missed what you said. I missed what you did. I missed Tet holidays. I missed all what have you. But now, it's the past.
The past. It's passed. Now, me and you. We will live for now and for tomorrow, for the future. For what will happen.
I know now, maybe, you are angry me. But I can't come to you to saying that I'm sorry. I'm ready accept all what you will do with me. I'm ready accept. I'm ready.
I still wanna say I love you. Now it means other. Maybe, it doesn't mean with you. But with me, it means so. I love you. And now, it will stop at a limit.
Please say you're ready forgive me! Please send message to me when you forgave me. I love you, baby!

Real life. Can you explain the meaning of life really? For me, the real life is a life, have me, have you, have the happiness, have the cry, laugh along with the dreams are real. For me, they are life. I do not need to know who you are. And you also do not know who I was. So I will be able to do what I want. Become your friend. I do not know you will not read or not. But I know one thing. That is what I write is true. I will not tell you know who I am, until I ready to do that. Because after the admiration, always be an approach. I will not give you an opportunity to do so. I will have to have an opportunity but it will tell your people. I only say that after the admiration, I never said that I'm a famous people. By that is not good. I do not need any one anything. I do not need wealth, not need the admiration. Also do not need something called the Princess of a country. I hate that. I only hope that I can do is help people. That is reason why I decided up all to become a doctor.
Real life, for me, it's a life, have you, have me, have all what is called reality. After the eyes of you, I was always me. Not a bit unreal. I still have a wrong time, still a little love. I still have problems. The other is my fault will always be seen. I just want to say that I look-alike you but maybe I know more about what I need. Never thought one else. Maybe, you do not believe me but I was always me, do not want a little unreal. Never fake me. Because you will not be done that.
After your eyes, I am also a normal person. I always know sadly, happily, crying, laugh... I will not hide them. I do not need anything. I just need you can understand... I always need friends. And I always want they can happy in the job, and in the life...
I will feel happily when you can laugh.. You can happy. I just hope you can happy.. Laugh!!!
Love you so much!

I understand. Life is something not perfect. Do not tell me that your life is perfect. Because, say you're false. I have experienced. And I know it's painful how. I understand all out. Yes. Do not think you are important to someone. Because, you never are all by someone. You do not know about it. I grew up in a family are said to be rich. I am been a Princess. From small, I'm always loved. I live free. I have what I want. But for me, is not happy. Perhaps, I too greedy? I do not know. What I need is just near the family over. I love my family too. But it looks like, they do not recognize it.
Between me and they always have a certain distance. They have taught me that: 'Do not be too greedy. Let go of what can, and don't hope be response '. I have done so. I go for all. I communicate all my heart. And as a result, I have pain for a long time. Bleeding heart. When you realize that all that I have received only disloyalty is impermanent. I hash. Break my heart. I was trying to escape the fear.
I fell into the pain. I have been hash. I tried to escape the feeling of it. But everything is just ... I try to. But as I try to more frustration. I expect the luck. I lost my faith. Nothing can tell the pain of mine. I accepted it as a normal way. I left it.
Perhaps with someone, I can not be considered as good. I accept the evaluation's. But you have time you think you better than you or I perfect? I know I is not perfect. And I also know you are not perfect. In us, no one perfect. Between me and you totally different. Yes I know. I complete other things. Characteristics? Family? And the blood flow? I know all. But I never evaluate that I better you or you better me. All are wrong.
I'm not perfect and you're also perfect. I know what is the hurt.
I was and am hurting. I don't forget. I learned a lot from life. But I was wrong again. I don't understand why. Why did I stupid? I was wrong. I was repeating the error of the past. The past? I'm too small. The little made me change. I became a cold. I do not smile as jokes when I was a child.
I do not give everything I have. I do not want. I see everything as a prank. I always suspected. I'm afraid. I don't know what you think about me. Maybe, I don't know do you read my blog. Hope you will read.
But now, I changed again. I gave everything, just to my lover have happiness. I'm ready to giving everything. And as long as my lover here with me. I don't own him. He has your freedom. And I have also so.
I know he did not love me. I know. I was still give him all what I can. And my heart is breaking. I'm such many afflictions that I can't cry. I can't.
I will give him all. What would you do, if you were me?