Today i am very confused,i don't know who is right? i don't know how i do will be ok? i have been very tired to explain something..no reason! she went back home lonely yesterday. I don't know where the problem is. She turned off her phone, i feel so helpless.

i don't know how many times we quarreled because of the reasons which could not be reason.

sometimes she ordered me what you can do and what you can't do,but i amn't kind of person. i just want to  do something  that is right.however we always had different ideas on the same things.Maybe sometimes she is right,or me.on thursday evening,our class would have a party which all the classmates will go.I think it is opportunity for me to have a good time with all classmates.I can't help myself telling she.However she very angryed with me,she ordered me not to go.When i heared this i just want to laugh,really!when she was going to graduate ,she often drank and sing the songs in the KTV all the night.i have no words for it.I just told her to take care of your body.Because i know it maybe not bad fot her.However this is  why when things come to me,she became so unreasonable! i don't know the reason!

i try to dial her number,however the phone continue to be turned off. however sometimes i am afraid to take the phone,because i don't what to say.i can't explain the reason because i think i am right.

my god!!!who can tell me what i should do???

i am really tired to do somethings i don't like.

Do you follow the rules setted by other persons?

Are you afraid when you are on the endless grassland without any restrictions?

I am  a man who get used to the live with the rules,when i get out the restrictions i will feel unsure.Even if I can't sure what i do is right,sometimes i will feel confused.

Not body but my heart.Yesterday evening  i called my girlfriend routine when she was watching TV on line.Therefore i didn't say any words,just listened to her voice.I am a very quiet people rather than a lot of words,so I think being able to listen to her voice or sound and knowing what she is doing by the phone is a kind of enjoyment,moreover i enjoy the process.However afer i kept silence for ten minutes,she broke quiet and said"why didn't you have one word,if you didn't have words i will hang up",I said"i just wanna hear your voice ",she said"it seems you were very busy all day!",i know she was complaining what i was always very busy recently and contacted her less than before.This is my fault,but I hoped she can understand.because i am a person who once i devote me into the works,i will forget all things around me.Maybe that is my biggest advantage as well as my biggest fault. 

     However it is as if she didn't understand me,she hanged up the phone suddenly.immediately i got very sad.This isn't our first she gets angry because i am very busy.And it seems that every time she will angry when I get a very important thing to do .I hope she can understand ,but things like every time she will get angry,especially when my partern is a girl.

      This morning i got some messages from QQ,i understand her words.Just like her words i also hope she will be my good friend that we keep no secrets from each other.

I know her means,but i also love my girlfriend.so to be good friend is our best choice.

      why is woman so complicated?

I begin losing myself,i can't forget that girl.so everyday i wait for her on line.That day i knew the boy who touched her deeply is me.beginingly i can't face it,but when i take it seriouly,and recall all the things in my highschool.I just make sure whether it's me or not.I admit i staring at her for some times,but not sure whether we communicated with each other by eyes.She asked me a lot of questions why i didn't choose her but your girlfirend.I just told her you just existed in my mind for 0.1second,I knew the answer is not my real words.because i thought of her for a long time,but i'm not know what kind of feeling it is!so the feeling gradually gone away finally.However her words of that day give rise to the feeling in my heart.so i'm confused i didn't know how to face it.

   tell her i also has that feeling the same as you! or continuing to  keep silence let  the feeling go away again.I didn't know,who can tell me! my god!

Three days ago,i met a girl on the internet who is my classmate in the highschool.it's for a long time we didn't connect with each other.so i'm very excited ,because i always think she is my good friend.that day we chat by QQ,it's really very happy,we talked a lot of things about outselves life in the university,but she suddenly changed the topic.then she asked me many things about my girl friend.she asked me why i fall in love with her at last.i didn't konw how to answer her question.she think my girl friend did'nt match me,and why i choosed her.I just tell her there are a large  number of things in the world we can't explain,maybe this is feeling.she continue to asked me and said mang bad words about my girlfriend,however i didn't stop her.at last she asked me why i didnt angry . i don't konw,just keep silence.but i feel things will happen between us.I continue to chat with her.i ask if she have boy friend in the university,she said she have three boyfriends in total,but now still a single girl. i ask her why you leave them at last.she said she always look for the feeling which she got in the highschool,but she always can't find that feeling.

    i asked her "what kind of feeling is it which let you can't forget and seek it for three year?" i start to tell myself it's  privacy!but can't defeat my curiosity! she answer me"it is feeling she communicated with each other by eyes,and the feeling touched her heart deeply,although she didn't konw whether it is a coincidence,or not" ,i didn't konw my curiosity is so strong.i continue to ask her boy'name.she just let me guess.she describe the boy who have girlfriend and still love her for now.i asked her whether the boy is her good friend.she said "the time is very short,cann't call as friend!"!