The past week is a hard time for me as I caught a bad cold at the end of the National Holidays. It happened to be the busiest working days when I had to face lots of telephone work. It was so embarassed that I coughed so much during the call and the listener final said may be I should call him next time.  Everyday was so hard for me. I can do nothing without phoning my customers. Then the only thing I can do was to write emails and be patient to wait for the replies.

I did not go for gym for two whole weeks, which made me began to worried about I might have gained some weight after the long vacation. And it did happen. I also think that it may be out of some psychologic effect. Whatever, I need to get more rest and recover from the silly illness and get back to my original life.

This weekend seemed a little short for me. I slept quite well and coughed much less than before. I guess I will be fine soon. I found that there are more and more colleagues catching a cold in our office. I hope that it was not me who started this domino. Anyway, God bless them.

Last night we had a very depressing chat on QQ. I found I don't trust him at all. We have very different habits on daily life. In my impression he is too casual and always pollute my living environment, e.g. he seldom clean his mouth after dinner and seldom wash his hands even it is very greasy. I hate dirty hands! I have told him about my dissatisfaction but he always has his own judgement. I don't know whether we can bear each other and live together in the future. Am I having too much restriction for him?

Sometimes I really doubt whether I really love him. I'm afraid that some years later I would be regretful about my choice today. I'm even afraid that he does not really love me in heart. All is out of his illusion and he might be also regret about his choice today. How sarcastic I am as regretness seems to be the biggest monster in my heart. I am not always good at making choice. Lacking sense of safety makes me so annoyed in front of him. Since I had been dumped by my first love, I had no trust on every man or love itself probably.

I know it is quite unfair for him. But I tends to let him know about how I really feels about the relationship. I am hoping that he can help me to make a choice. I am still not grown up, ain't I?

I got some voucher. In it there was some discount for some Hair Salon that interested me a little because my fringes were too long. So I wanted to make some change before going home.

It was the first professional hair salon I found ever before. The hair stylist and the hair washer made me feel so relax. Unlike others, they did not do any promotion for their products or service. I nearlly took a short nap lying there. The stylist had said sth i like. He said I don't need to make curling hair and I can try on another hair style--- sth like Sassoon's "BoBo"style. It looked very lovely and very different with the original me. I thought I can give my family a shock when I come home. I accepted that idea.

I did give my family a shock. My father did not recognize me outside the exit of railway station; while my mom do not like the new style. I am a little bit disappointed about that. And my BF also said it was just so-so, not bad. Did he mean "not good" at the mean time?

Whatsoever, I am still going to meet my friends with this new hair style, hoping them give me some positive response. I really care about how others judge me.

Ok. It is late now. So good night to my blog viewers~~

Finally I got my ticket from a travel agency this noon. It was not that difficult as I thought before. But I still felt a little disappointed as I have to go home on my own without anyone's accompany. It's a lonely trip to me.

I brought the TOMY dancing baby toy to my dome. today. It's a birthday gift received on my birthday. But it is not my gift. I bought it from Taobao and plans to give it to my best male friend as his birthday gift. The dancing baby toy looks so lovely and dolt. Oh I like it so much. Why it is not my gift? I guess I should be a great great friend for him. To the true friend, give the true gift. I hope whenever he sees the foolish dancing baby toy, he can still remember me as his true great happy friend.

Today we had a meeting for the RA team. It's said that there will be a regular team meeting on every monday morning. From now on, we'll have meeting in English. Everybody has the chance to say english. It's a great begining that there is a real foreigners who speak nativelike english. Her words are easy to follow. No redundent rubbish, just clean and clear. Well, most of others's english really makes me sleepy. I guess I did not speak fluently and briefly enough. But that's what I need to improve.

I found Singapore English is very interesting. My boss is from there. He said some words about the computer monitor which made us confused for some while. That's "Dead Pixel" and "Semi-not-done products". It took me a long time to figure out his pronunciation and finally to translate them into Chinese for our better understanding. Since then, when he was talking, he always focused on me and trying the get the positive response from my eye contact. Finally i concluded that people tend to communicate with some one that is easier to communicate. So when you really want to get everything run smoothly you should first learn to listen and understand.

Wow, it's already passed 24:00 pm. Wish myself a happy journey in my dream.

Yesterday I found "Jiangnan Liuxu", a Taobao seller, had just put some new arrivals on her page. This time her pictures' quality is much better than that ever before. I found several styles may suitable for me. I knew I had to buy some.

How many times I told myself not to buy too much clothes on Taobao. It spoiled me. Actually I had spent a lot and I have not aware of that. And even so, i cannot control myself.

I had better set a  limitation for myself. Well, every month no more than two bids is acceptable..... Hopes it work!

Yesterday I went to do Pilates. I was so exausted that I decided to go to bed a little earlier. But my old friends DD and Yummy called me at QQ at about 11:00 pm. I thought that they just wanted to idle the time by chatting with me, and as my webcam seemed not to support the conference call. I said I was very sleepy and I gonna go now. Then I quit and fall asleep. At midnight I woke up and I realized that it is my birthday! No wonder they called me so late. They must have wished to experience the moment with me! God! I was too stupid! I ruined their nice idea. They must be very confused about my reaction last night. So I explaned to them as soon as I reached company, hoping that they could understand and forgive my rudeness.

He is coming back today. My first wish is to see him as soon as I come home after work. I believe God is generous on someone's birthday. So he would let me have more than one wish, isn't he?

This morning we hold a small department meeting. Our department coordinator implies very clearly that our company is going to sack employees.

The economic of USA and many other countries is experencing a severe decline. Our company is an American public company. So I think the situation of our company must be quite tough. It's said that every department should submit a laid-off list for reference and all the recruitment work is stopped now.

Suddenly I know why we do not find new employees even if we lost so many colleagues in the H1 of the year. Now there may not need to downsize out department.

I never feel bad about it. I think if I was fired, (of course I will be a little upset)if there is reasonable and legal compensation, which to me is a kind of  annual bonus, I can still accept it. I can get freedom ealier without waiting until next year.

On the other hand, my BF seems to have no luch in Hukou's issue. The first problem can not be solved as he can not be confirmed its working level. oh Poor man~~ he may need to do it next year in another way. God bless him!

Tomorrow he is going to leave for Qingdao to handle the HuKou issue.

Life in our country is always not that easy. Last year I also spent quite a lot of money and time on Hukou moving. Hukou issue is a typical phenomenon in our country. Hukou marks down the personal ID and his residency situation. Citizen do not only have an ID card and they should firstly have a Hukou. Withou Hukou you can not get marry nor give an official indentity to your new born baby. And lots of problems will emerge out of this. Well, the most unbearable thing is that the Hukou management is very very outdated! If you change your residency, you will have to transfer it to your new resident city. Then, you will have to go to the police office and some related autorites of the previous resident city to BEG for the permitment and the needed documents. The process is very very complicated. Many people will take incredible efforts to get it done..... Last year it was my turn and now it's his turn.

He is about to leave for 3 days and a half. Sundenly I felt it is such a long time that i cannot see him. I will be boring without him staying around me and listening to my daily murmuring. It will be a silent day for I have nobody to talk to.

I think I should find something to do. Wish him good luck there!

I came back to work just now and made two calls to the HK colleagues. One did not answer my call and the other thought our client may not participate in our report. I can not finish my job. It's unfair. HK client is not easy to contact. My partner have all mainland contacts. Next time, we need to share all the HK client with her.

Atually I hate her. She is not a smooth girl and always do and speak without considering other's feelings. Sometimes not so friendly and if I show my friendliness and help to her, she will easiliy forget it once she think it's useless. She is too straight and a little bit arrogant even if something she said is right.

I am a sensitive girl. So I don't like such kind of person to be my friend or colleague.

Registered new blogs is a kind of "hobby" for me. Let me see, up till now, I am running at least two Blogs on other websites. Sometimes when I feel bored, I will just murmur on my blog; or when I want to share some lovely things and memories, I will also show them on my blogs.

Once in a while, I read the blogs longlong ago and I can find something else I cant see in the past. For example, when I was upset for the current relationship, I looked back to my past diary which might be written one year or two years ago. I suddenly found that "Oh, incredible! We were quarreling so much. And see, he had made so much efforts to keep our relationship. It's so touching!" All my warm and romantic old story plots came back to my mind and I feel so contented.

And another example is that, when I look back to some silly things I had done long long before, I found that lots of memories will easily melt away if we do not recall them. The best way for us to keep those precious memories is to write them down. Just like photos is created to help people the remember someone, some stories, some places......

Ok, let me back to my work now. It's boring but still I have to finish it.