Wow, I can't believe that i am such a fool and i should of seen this coming but never did because of the person that i was talking to last night and everything. I met this nice and sweet guy on aim chat and we hit it off very well and we were just talking on the phone this afternoon i got a phone call from is ex girlfriend and i was not to happy about that because i told him last night that i did not want to come between anyone. I just don't know if he knows that she called me but anyway if i do talk to him i am going to let him know again that i just don't want to come between him and her even through they are not dateing each other because of i don't know did not ask didn't want to know. I just don't know what i am going to do and or do i really care at this moment.

I'm just tired of getting played and shit and i just hope that chris knows that this shit is going on and i am not in the mood to play this shit again. I just don't need this stress on my shoulders and i just don't give a fuck if you ask me. I just don't like the games that people like to play on me because it's totally wrong if you ask me and i thought i was a good girl and i am and that just not how i want things to end up and i really like chris but i am just hoping that he can find a way to get away from his ex crazy ass girlfriend. I mean we were talking about all different kinds of things and i am never to sure about anything if you ask me i am just a lucky girl to have what i have in life. I just know what i like and when i like some thing i go after what i want in life and everything.

Actually, I really don't know what to do anymore and i am not going to play this game if you know how i feel about lies and everything. I just know that i like talking ot him as a friend if something happens between us that great and i am going to be happy but i just don't need someone calling me and telling me that they are going to beat me up that just dumb and you just need to grow up and everything if you know what i mean. So that how i am feeling right now and in my heart i know that things are going to be alright but sometimes i am scared to think other wise if you know what i mean. But i just don't want to get my hopes up and everything because that is the worse part.

Well Bloggers, I'm out for the night, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So peace out everyone, Bye for now, Please check back for more updates on me.

I'm so sorry my readers because i have not had anything good go on so that is why i have not bloged in a while. I'm just been working my ass off and i can't get online when i am working to blog so i thought i would get on and tell you how things are going with me. So how is everyone doing because i thought i would ask and everything. I'm totally been hanging out with the new guy in my life and he is something else if you ask me and i need to think my cousin for this because he always got my back when needed.

Right now, I'm just hanging out at home because i am bored out of my mind and i just don't feel like trash talking anyone tonight because that might come back to haunt people if i am talking shit about them if you ask me and i am crazy like that. I just wish that i could be with the one that i love and just wish that he did not have to work on the days that  i have off and it's crazy but i am happy for once and i just don't have to go on thinking that someone hated me or did not love me and he loves going out and watching my uncle band play and that just great and he knows who loves him.

Wow, I'm just so lucky to have someone who loves me and honers me and just wants to spend all his time with his girl and everything. I'm so happy that i get to go to work and see him at night when i am coming in to work and everything that so great if you ask me. I'm just trying to have my own life and it's just who i am. The reason why i am not saying what my boyfriend name is because i really don't want  the bitch Amanda Peck finding out who i am seeing because she will try to break us up and i really don't need that in my life.

I'm really happy that i finally got the drama bitch out of my life and everything she just needs to shut her fuckign mouth and just leave people alone and  stay her nasty ass off the net and i would totally be fucking happy and everything but that never going to happen because i think i am going to turn her ass in because she don't know how to fucking take care of her kids and i know how to and everything she a fucking bitch and all my friends hate her.

Well Bloggers, I'm going to end this here for tonight, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So peace out everyone, Bye for now, Please check back for more updates on me.

Right now, I'm just thinking about all the regrets that i have my in my life and how do you fucking go from all that to a clean life with out all the regrets. I just don't know what is going on in my mind but right now i am just trying to find out what i really want in life and that just something i have to think out with my mind. So when i am just thinking about all the dumb things in my life how do you go on and not think about it and just move on with you're life and start over because i am tired of the heart breaks and everything I'm not picky about who i go out with because i just want them to treat me right and not play games with me or my heart because that just what really hurts me the most if you ask me and everything. I just don't want to go though that again and i know that want hurts me the most in my life if you ask me.

Well, Things with me are alright because i have the most amazing friends in this world that i could not ask for and they have been there for me and that a great thing to have in you're life is great friends. I just wish that i could hang out with them more then i do now if you ask me i have been very busy with work and the life that i am living right now and all the haunting things that are going on. So i am really hope that i can get this over control and not have to worry about all the confussion in my life and everything. I just want to live a life that i know is going to be alright for me and i just do't have to worry about all the fuck up things in life because the most important thing is the one you love and you're family and friends.

I'm just scared about all the crazy people out there that going to hurt me and i just don't know what is going to happen and i have lost it if you ask me and i am tired of playing this scared game as well. I just want to move on with my life and not have to fucking care about anything and it's wrong of me to say this but i have a right and it's not right i know but this is how i feel at the moment. So i am just going to keep my head up and just know that i am going to be alright and not care about it because the more i just let it go then i won't have to hold anymore grudges and i just don't feel like that just never going to be alright. I never really cared for Amanda peck and the fucking bull shit that the damn fucking drama queen brings and i am totally glad that she out of my fucking life for good because i would not be friends with her again. I just can't stand how fucking annoying she was and that only part of it if you ask me.

Well bloggers, I'm going to end this here for tonight, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So peace out everyone, Come back and look for more updates on me, Bye for now.

Happy is how I feel
When I wake up each morning
And I see your smiling face
Every day I feel warm sunshine
Just knowing that you are mine.

Happy is the way you make me feel
When you kiss me, when you hold me oh, so tight
Oh babe! Everything feels so right
When you kiss me...
When you touch me...
My heart skips a beat
You always seem to sweep me off my feet.

Happy is when I fell in love with you
I thank God above for giving me a chance
At Happiness
My wonderful, loving man
And a "Happy" forever romance.

Well, Right now i'm just hanging out in my room and posting pictures up from the weekend of me and my family and friends and everything. I just glad that i could go out this weekend and just have some fun because that want i really need in my life and i am not going to say anything bad about all the shit that goes on my my life but that just how i am i just know how to hide things that are bugging me at the time. I mean i really did have fun until my cousin girlfriend pissed me off and that just not cool if you ask me but you never come between family if you ask me

Last night was fucking awesome because i got to go and watch my uncle randy play at the carleton hotel and i hot to spend time with my cousin tony and his friends jeremy and i got to see kyle and that was totally worth having good time if you ask me and everything. So i hope that my dad was having his fun with friends and if you know i just wanted to hang out with people my own age you know it's nothing against my dad or anything like that because i love spending time with my dad and it's great to know that i can do things and be there for my dad when he needs it.

So, I was so having fun yesterday because me and my dad  and two of my nephews went over to my grandmas house and races rc cars most of the day because it was totally fun and worth it and i could see that my dad was having a great time just racing his car and everything. So i am just glad to have a family like i do because we love to have fun when its the right time if you ask me and it's not that i am just living my life and just having a great old time if you ask me and everything.

I'm just really hoping that things are going to be alright in the long run for my cousin tony because i totally worry about him and i know i shouldn't but i do because he has been there for me and always will be and he told me lastnight that he loves hanging out with me and seeing me so that all that really matters to me and i love him to death because he is my cousin and we have so much fun together and it's great if you ask me. I've never been so close to anyone and i love that with my cousin tony it's like i can tell him anything and he won't judge me and everything and it's good to have someone like that he my best friend totally. He knows more about me then anyone and that good because i won't tell anyone what he told me last night and we just are good friends and cousins.

Well Bloggers, I'm going to finish posting my pictures  and blog, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going, So peace out everyone, Bye for now, Check back for more updates