Well, My friend Chris called me today and was bitching about his ex girlfriend and i am like i really don’t want to hear about it because it’s not my fucking problem i have my own problems and i just don’t want want to hear about his you know. So i was just being nice to him and listen as  friend because i just don’t want to get involved in anything that going to cost me something that i just don’t want to play this game anymore i just want a life that i can be happy in and that just something i am still working for.  I mean when do i get a break to just be myself and have fun with my family and friends and i just feel like that never going to happen in my life and i am tired of thinking about all the crazy things that goes on because i am not ready for that. So i just don’t know what i am going to do anymore because it’s like people want to be friends with me but tell me there problems and i just don’t want to go through that again if you know what i am talking about and everything. I just want to know what it’s like to have a normal life and i am just about to find out because i finally got things going my way and that makes me happy.

Right now, I’m just hanging out in my room just talking to my friends on the computer and one phone and everything. I just want to be with the guy that i love and everything because he is the most amazing guy in this world who knows how much i love and want to spend time with and everything. I’m just scared that he is going to leave me and everything. So i keep on thinking about him and dreaming about him and it’s nice and I just know that will gets me and we totally love talking about everything that is going on with each other and i love him to death and i would not ask for anything better then i got with him. I just know that i am trying to be happy and that will does for me and he very good at just loving me and i am not sure on what i am going to do it’s hard for me to make up my mind about things because i am sure you understand where i am coming from and i am just trying to get things all figured out and it’s hard when you got other people liking you and just don’t know what you feel anymore. I’m totally not sure on how i feel at this point in time because i am trying to make things right as i am thinking about all the different things. I just care so much about my friends and i just don’t want to hurt anyone you know what i mean.

I can’t wait for tomorrow night because it’s party time and i am really want to go out and see my aunt lee and my uncle randy and my cousin tony and his friend Jeremy because they are my friends and my cousin tony is like my best friend i can tell me anything and he understands how i feel and everything and i am just trying to get him to hook me up with his friend Jeremy because i really like him and everything so i am hoping that this time i can do something about that but i just don’t want to hurt will because we started dating over last weekend and i know that we live far away from each other so i can have two guys because i think that things are going to be totally fucking weird with me if you know what i mean. I’m just want to go and hang out with my friends because then i can finally find out what is going on and mostly i have so much going on that it’s not right if  you know what i mean. I just think that things are going to be okay i have to have faith and that just something that i have to learn if you know what i mean. I just know that i have so much thinking to do and it’s not right for me to not understand what is really on in my life because it’s all different things happen all at the same time and it’s not right for me to feel like this if you know what i am talking about.

Well, Right now i am just playing vampires on face Book and i really like the game it’s do much fun and thinks to my sister i am having so much fun to playing games and just talking to new people and everything if you know what i am talking about. So i am just wasting time until i get tired and then go to bed because i am tired of people getting mad at me because i am talking to my friends and just thinking about all the good things in life because that how i am feeling and everything. I just don’t care about all the crazy things in life because i am never going to be like anyone and that just nothing that goes on and everything. I just don’t care about all the different things that goes on because that never happen to me but it’s okay through because i am who i am that just what i am going to say about that because of all the stuff that i have done and everything if you know what i mean. So I know that i have a lot to say on this but i am just venting and just getting this all out of my chest and hopefully that people will understand who i am and now i run things in my life because i am sure you all know what i am talking about and everything.

Well Bloggers, I’m out for the night, I’ll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So peace out everyone, Bye for now, Please check back for more updates on me.

Wow, I'm totally in love with two guys and i just don't know what to do anymore. I have feelings for the guy i am with now but he treats me like shit most of the time and i started talking to this guy named will that i met on fubar and i totally  like him and he has the same hopes and dreams that i have and i know that we would totally work out better then the guy that i am with right now and i am sure of this. Well i know that i am in a good state of mind because i really do have feelings for will and i want him in my life because i know in my heart that he would be better for me then the guy i have right now and  i am torn and confussed at the same time.

I'm totally love how Kristina thinks and she is my best friend and we both hate Amanda peck the slut bitch and whore if you ask me. Because i totally think it's funny that Amanda is going to lose everything she wanted in life and i am not going to be friends with someone who sleeps around and everything. I'm not that fucking dumb if you ask me i think it's fucking funny and i hope she gets what std because that how much i fucking hate her and she a big ass drama queen and i am not going to let that bitch fuck things up for me because i am totally fuck things up for her and she don't want to go there with me because i am fucking older then her and wiseer then she is and i am a very good person once you get to know me. So i am going to laugh once all this happens because that just nothing i am not going to safe her.

Well, Today is going to be a long ass day because i am just in my room about to do some cleaning because i am bored out of my mind so i thought i would get some of my thoughts done on my blogs before i did some cleaning and totally forget and everything but i am a loving girl who just wants a good life for her self and i thought i was doing that good of a job but i know that i need to figured out things but it's hard when you know that you're heart not in the right place that you want it to be and you keep thinking about the one person you really want in you're life. So as i am sitting her thinking about all the things that i really want in life that i just know things are totally going to work out for me i have faith in myself.

I just want to be happy and that is all i really care about in my life. I know that i am going to make mistakes in my life but i know how to learn from them and just knowing that i do know about my life is not all that complicated so i just have to keep my head up high and pray that god is willing to help me and guide me through all the different changes in life that i need to really know about and that  is what i am hoping for because if he can help me change my life to be a better person then i won't have to be the way that i am right now and that just something i am trying to do because i feel it's right and i know that my friends and family are going to see a change coming i just can't promised it right now if you know what i mean. So i just feel like i have made some changes in my life and i am happy with it i love who i am.

Well bloggers, I'm going to go for now, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So peace out everyone, Bye for now, Please check back for more updates on me.

Well, Right now i am chillin on facebook playing games and doing my countdowns because i am so fucking bored right now if you know what i am talking about. I'm just in my room on my computer and just wasting time before the redwings game start and i am going to go out in the living room and watch them on big screen and everything. I have not heard from chris and i am liking the fact that i told him off on the phone the last time i talk to him and he told me that he was sorry and i was like  you knew what you was doing and you just don't want to be friends with me you just want to use me that how i see it. I'm playing with my puppy on facebook and she is a pretty boxer and i love her.

I'm thinking about will right now because he my everything and i love him to death and i know that he knows how much i care about him and that i am going to be there for him when ever he needs me and everything and i am happy to have him in my life. I just wish that he was not working and online so we could cam and talk agian that was totally awesome last weekend and everything i totally love it and now that he told me that i was is girlfriend i was so happy to hear that from him as well so i am happy and very lucky and i am going to treat him right just like he would me and everything. I am finally happy for a change in my life and i could not be anymore happier then i am.

Well, The  redwings are playing and i am watching them in my room because i did not feel like going out in the living room to watch them on the big tv that we just got and everything and i am sure they are totally going to win i have faith in them. So anyway i am just chillin and i just think that things are going to work out for me i have to have faith in that and that is all i can really say about that if you ask me and everything. But i think that i am going to be alright i have faith in my self and that all that really matters in life and that is what i am hoping for if you ask me and everything.

Well, Bloggers, I'm going to go, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So peace out everyone, Bye for now, Please check back for more updates.

Wow, I'm so pissed off at chris it's not even funny anymore. I just don't know what i was thinking with him and i am finally wondering if i made a big mistake or not. Because he called me this morning and we were talking and i told him how i went to a party and hang out with my cousin and his friend Jeremy and everything and how much fun i had and how fucking drunk i was and it was great and all trust me if you know what i mean. Well he tells me that he went out and had fun with his biker buddys and everything and then told me that he fuck is ex girlfriend and that totally pissed me off if you are into me i don't want to hear that. Well i told him that i had to go and i'll talk to him later i am wondering if he knows that i am pissed off and hurt but why would you do that to someone you like that fuck up if you ask me.

I'm so done with the lies that people tell me because it's not worth it or my time and i just don't want to hear them anymore and it really hurts when you think that someone likes you and they fucking play with you're emotions and everything. I just don't know if i have the heart to say what is really on my mind as i am sitting here writing what i feel and i am tried of playing all the fucking games that guys play with gurls and it's not right if you ask me. I'm not interested in playing all the fucking games and i am just tired of all the shit that goes on and i just wish that people would totally fucking grow up and just leave me out of there fucking drama and just let me live my own life and not have to care about anything that goes on.

I'm not sure on what i am going to do about things because i just want to move on with my life and not worry about things just be myself if you ask me it's kind of crazy. I just don't want to lose what i have and that just the love i have for my friends and they sometimes pissed me off because they don't realized that i have my own life and i just want to spend it with the one who has my heart and soul and don't play games with me and everything. I'm totally just playing my cards safe right now because that how i feel and its not right for me to feel the pain i am feeling and it's not who i am and everything and i just don't want that in my life. I have terms and it's not like i am asking for much if you know what i am talking about.

I really miss my sexy boyfriend and i was so happy when i got to talk to him last night on yahoo messenger and we cam with each other and that was totally awesome. I really do miss him and i am hoping that he comes online tonight so we can talk to each other and make more plans to spend time with each other because i have to find out what he wants to do and hopefully get that off from work if you ask me and everything. I just wish that will was online and that we could talk like we did last night and i am finally in love this time and i know what love feels like and i really love it because he only wants to be with me and he very interested in me.

I'm glad that my mom had a great mother's day and everything. And tomorrow is her birthday and i just wanted to wish her a great day and hopefully we can go out this weekend and have fun and just forget all the crazyness things that goes on in life. I just want to have fun with my family and friends and just show how much i love my friends and family and i am not going to forget them because i am just who i am and that is just how i am feeling. I love everyone and that nothing you just don't want to forget if you ask me and everything.

Well Bloggers, I'm going to end this here, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So peace out everyone, Bye for now, Please check back for more updates on me.