I am afraid ,really afraid to online everyday and the most serious thing is sit in afront of the internet ,that is very seriously harm to my eyes ,with my bad studying ,I wanna go to college in 3 months ,so I must study harder and harder these 22 days

But my maths is very really suck ,its bad thing always consumes all my strength and confidence, One thing I can ues to overcome it is my insistence ,I also encourage myself that quote my experience of my school's sport competition .It really made me grew up and learned WHAT IS INSISTENCE .  INSISTENCE ==VISTORY

I have a bit tension . Sometimes I feel that I will have a very very wonderful further .But sometimes I feel very very afraid of my life...I can not control it as I want. It often makes me upset

How awful, The countdown to the college entrance examination----65 days. My X teacher said :" You are all have qualifications to take part in ,so carry ,Success belongs to the persevering,"

Yes,when I heard my X teacher say that,I felt relax and not so tension. Thanks My cute and adorable X teacher.

So ,I must be harder and harder ...  Carry on!

Sam ,you are the best!!!

   It is rainy these days,the weather is much too wet.but i like it,cuz i like the sounds of the raindrop fall to the iron..lol..that is very nice.

   Today i went to school without umbrella,then the raindrop fell to my face,i just felt this feeling is very nice,i love it!!!

   suddenly,this feeling reminds me of my childhood,when i was 7(i don't really remember),my friends leaved me behind at school...

   Then i went home alone,and it rained as well.My had bad mood.my parents seem like forgot me.

   To my surprised,a red and beautiful umbrella enveloped my wet head.i saw back and look up,i saw a very handsome boy who also smiled at me.

   I didn't remember my response,i think i must only silent until he took me home.lololol...

   That is a very good recall,i won't forget the kind-hearted boy who went home with me!!!

Yesterday there is a thief wanted to come to my apartment ...

he stood at the balcony and try to force the lock

but he  dropped  the vase on the floor and it broke into pieces

then it woke up my brother who was sleeping

so my brother opened the door and saw the chief

..................

we don't live with our parents.

and they rarely come to here

this is not a safety apartment...

.................

even though the thief come in ,but here has no money inside

just some household appliances

................

if i see the thief want to come in my apartment next time

i will hit this feces by a big and thick stick .........

my life is too stupid...

go to school ,eat ,go to bed ...

no date no entertainment ...

如果我一辈子真的这么过了

那生活有什么意思啊...

难道中国的学生就是要这个样子

才是好的学生吗???

什么叫活出来的人生???

什么人生如戏???

但我现在感觉得到的就只有

~~~~~~无聊~~~~~~

today is Valentine's day ...but i dont have lover ,,,many friends ask me "why dont you find one???"  i really dont know how to answer them ...only said i have no feeling for boys now......and then ,they must ask me "are you lesbian?"  who knows.......

but a strange thing happened  ,i received a chocolate ....it is jinsha ...wowo  it taste good

Bobo...i love you ...lol...she is a girl

sometimes i think that even though we dont have boyfriend ,

but it doesn't matter , cuz we live happy at the moment

i dont want to have any change till i graduate

maybe sometimes my friends play with them boyfriend or girlfriend

so let me alone

but i dont mind or care  ,,,cuz i have my best friend

it never leave me

lol it is my bike   i often ride it for many hours

i won't stop utill i feel too tired to ride

when i ride it   that i will think many many things what happened around me

i alway smile  ......   i think how beautiful the world is

i have many friends ,they are nice and friendly

even if i did some bad thing for them,

them would  forget it fastly

previous ,i hurt my friend ,,,said a lot of words what is deeply hurt him

but him pretended nothing happened

and often chat with me ,make my happy ,

even send some presents for my bad newyear

i feel a great sense of guilt

i won't love him

but i dont know what can i do for him

I alway don't listen to my teacher when she is ordering some stupid thing

but this is not a stupid thing what she said we have a half day rest ...

my god...so i did a stupid thing what i went to school ...

ohoh..thanks god ,i was not alone

5 of my classmates were at class ,but they are different from me

cuz they live in school dormitory...

so i spent my 80% of time in reading my book

it tells "sex" and woman how to control men

emm... it has a bit boring...

tells about which women can attract men

and men why be control by women

at last ,men would pay a lot for their sexdesir

EP: money  wife future ......and so on......

and then ,i told with my classmates about this book

but they are all the conventional girls

i can read that their mind are pure

so when i discuss about sex....

they looked at me with unbelievable and stange expression

and shouted at me "you are not a virgin? ...my god,unbelive"

i did not answered her such stupid question...

why do teachers like to forbid students to do what they like???

why can not we have our own space ???

cuz what???

I know,I am chinese ,but so what ,why the leaders of China still don't change the law of eduation of China....

It is really bored ,and I think I never suit it ...

Maybe i am really a disobedient girl ...yea...

life full of "maybe"........

maybe i can kill it ~~~~~~~

who knows....